It had been two bad weeks for me… So bad that sometimes, I just can’t breathe.

There are a lot of ways of escaping. Or stalling.  Sometimes, I’d wonder why not just face what’s inevitable?  I guess, like any warrior, you need time to pause, reflect, gain energy.  Because once you’re in the battlefield, there’s no turning around. You either finish it head-on, or die or get wounded in the middle.  Any way, there’s no stopping once you take that step.

So, I’ve been doing lots of crazy stuff. And counting.

At this moment, I want to be disconnected from the social world.  So no social networks for me right now.  The world around me continues to go forth, while I’m stuck somewhere in a skeleton-full closet.  So why not step back, get out of that world and be on my own?

April was a month of wounds for me. Literally speaking, I got 7 wounds/cuts in my hands alone! As for May, it started off reeeeealy bad.  Right after that first weekend.  It was such a bummer.

So right now, I just eat.  And eat and eat.  Of course, I’ve been drinking alot, sampling new drinks and tasting new concoctions.   Hanging out with a new group of friends.  It just has to be something new. Hey, we cope up in different frequencies.

So, food.  I’ve been having Kopi-Roti mania the past few weeks.  And each visit just keeps on getting better.

Kopi Roti Indulgence

Kopi Roti Indulgence

So, this is my Kaya toast with soft-boiled eggs.  It is just heavenly.  Kaya toast with coco-butter filling….. whoot-woo! And of course I paired it with Kopi tea (coffee tea).  The other drink is Kopi with milk. And not just any milk.  It’s  condensed milk! Yummy!  What did I pair it with?

Kopi French Toast!

Kopi French Toast!

Yep yep! French Toast and again with the coco-butter spread.  I just can’t get enough of it.  I’ve been visiting at least once a week.

I am just one happy girl with Kopi Roti finally opening in Cebu!

I am not Dishonest, I am just not telling…

“You just had a feeling about someone. And today, your suspicions will be totally confirmed…”

—my horoscope for the day? 02 May 2009

There is just something powerful with one’s gut feel.  And at times, it is just too strong that all it’s doing is scream from the insides, until you go “logic-deaf”.

Anyway, how so true my horoscope is today. I just had a feeling that this someone is not being truthful —and find out I did.

And it got me to thinking: there are a few people worthy of your trust. Conversely, not all would deem me worthy of their trust.

That being said, if you can’t be honest with me then I probably am not worthy of your trust and not of significant value.

So now, I am saving myself the trouble of having to feel bad.

I’ll just look forward to tomorrow’s boxing match.  What you see is what you get.

(late posting. Drafted 02 May 2009)

Closing Circles

“It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn’t matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over.”

-The Zahir

I was catching up with an old friend last week.  We had a lot to talk about.  It was some real cathing up.

We sat together in class way back in college.  Us being girls, we talked about everything.  And zeroed in on our lovelives. Dang! Why is it such a crucial topic? And then I realized: why do I cringe everytime people ask me about it?

But this mate of mine had her share of broken hearts, snatched fairy tales, torn dreams.  She learned the hard way.  Don’t we all? Haven’t we, at one point, claimed to be in love? Haven’t we professed that this time, it is different? How many times should that happen?

This, she has to say:  We focus too much on making things work with one person, but if we consider every guy a possibility, then things will be easier.

I suppose, she is right.

So ditch all those hopes, all those dreams with one person.  Better yet, don’t start hoping.  Don’t start dreaming.  You’ll just get disappointed.

What an empty life that would be.

To live with no risk.

I say, move forward.  Whatever frustrations you had from the past, leave it where it should be.  In the past.  Closing circles. Don’t be afraid to hope again.  To dream again.

It is just like looking for an ace in a stack of cards.  The more cards you discard, the nearer you get to your ace.

Tiring? Yes.  But it will be worth it.

Hello world!

And so there is an initial entry! Hello to this site.

After mulling on where to blog, I’ve landed here. I have arrived.

Looking forward to more of me on this site.

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