Baby Zahir

Darn this Astrology Newsletter…

babyzahir — Tue, 08 Jun 2010 06:09:16 +0000

Crap! And yet I can’t get myself to delete it from my emails. Hehehe… I guess this serves as an icebreaker from my boring working aspirations.

After I read this month, can’t help but view my previous predictions (so to speak). I really wouldn’t know if all of that is true. But for this month? Check on everything. As in, everything. Here it goes….

How many times do you have to be hurt before you catch on? You Goat people let yourselves be hornswoggled into love and work situations that ultimately clog the arteries of your very life. Conflicts arise over scheduling or intentions or sometimes just over simple gossip. You are susceptible to seductions of all types. People congratulate you or applaud you or caress your sweating brow and you crumple in a heap before them. You were not born self-confident. So you do need the approval of others. But at some point you must change. Learn not to accept just any old “others”. This month there are several knots to be untangled. You have gotten yourself into a labyrinthine work situation where you are not happy. But you tell yourself, “It’s a job. I need a job. I’ll put up with it.” The situation irritates you and you wish it would change. But because you are the Goat you, you feel incapable of changing it. Try to find another job. Go on the web, send out c.v.’s or talk to people who might know others who could hire you. Ideally you could work on your own doing handyman/woman work or making furniture or sewing clothes. To be free lance is ideal for Goats. But in order to be a success at it, you need a sound partner and you need to listen to that partner’s wise advice. Secondly, your love life is snarled. The one you love seems indifferent to you. The one you could very well live without is all over you with attention, gifts and even money. This is the kind of situation which can terminally confuse a Goat person. You want to be loved by your ideal lover. But you need the steady attention, presents and extra cash more. Try and find a happy medium person – one who is equal to you and loves you, but insists on your standing on your own four feet. The third issue is your health. You have been prescribed a certain medication or vitamin supplement. Yet you don’t take it at all or else you swallow it occasionally. This neglect weakens your immune system and leaves you open to infection. Please try to take care of yourself more seriously and resist depending on others to do it for you.

Predictions for the Month of May 2010

babyzahir — Wed, 12 May 2010 11:57:44 +0000

Here I go again…. not entirely my fault… I don’t remember ever subscribing to e-newsletter on Astrology. It is just for fun and something I’d look up if I happen to have time on my hands…. or at certain yearly dates: new year/christmas or birthday. This is the first time I’ve received a newsletter. Might as well share it it.

May doesn’t look nearly as mad as did April for Goat people. You have begun to feel stronger about how to cope with the eccentrically erratic mood of the Tiger year. The first eleven days of May, Mercury will still be in retrograde mode. Don’t go vowing undying fidelity or committing to a contract you can’t get out of easily until at least the 12th. After that you can begin to live almost normally again. The shock of the hectic pace of the Tiger year will have completely worn off. Take yourself by the hand and wander into to the nearest church, temple or mosque to thank your lucky stars you made it. Then, get moving on your pet project. If your paying job takes all of your time during the week, you still have evenings and weekends to attend to that creative matter you are so keen on completing. Whether you’re painting or sewing or building tree houses, you want the result to be not only practical – but aesthetically pleasing. Nobody does things with his or her hands better than you. This month, try to fend off all interlopers. Reduce your social life to near zero and stick to that workshop or studio against all odds. If your love sector is only slouching along it’s likely because you have difficulty understanding what the other person needs from you. You are such a dreamy soul that you often forget you aren’t alone on this earth. The person who loves you most needs your attention. A pat on the head (or behind), a bunch of flowers or a bottle of fine wine is a good start. But your lover needs your voice too. Speak up and say I love you. What does it cost? Nothing. Take care with the feelings of family members. You have an older relative who wants to know that you are just fine. Give them a call to reassure them. At the end of May you will be contacted by someone important in your network of acquaintances. They need you for a particular favor that only you can perform – a handyman job or some artistic endeavor. Agree to do this for them. They will return to favor tenfold.

Yes, it had been crazy weeks for me. A bit elated because soulfriend was here for a weeklong vacation. April was a bad month. Bad, bad, bad. Everything just seemed to be falling apart. I bought lots and lots of art materials to do something else… and up to this day, they are still in a corner of my room, good as new.

I wonder which month will be good for me for this year. I love tiger pa naman, and the year seems to be not favorable to me. Oh well, it says I will survive. To survival then.

OH, I got myself another message, too. From Mr. Transparency guy… I’m happy that’s its all over. The silence has been quite long. It feels so good to be reconnected again. A breath of fresh air. Half of me is saying that I should have gotten warm a long time ago… made the first move. But half of me just can’t give in. Just goes to show how high my pride is. What can I do?

I am a dreamy soul…. (ginawang reason ang prediction! hahahah)

Have You Ever Needed Someone So Bad?

babyzahir — Tue, 11 May 2010 14:42:53 +0000

Wow… almost a year since my last post.

As usual, lalang… I’m on a Def Leppard mode…

Here I am, I’m in the wrong bed again
It’s just a game I just can’t win
There you are breathin’ soft on my skin
Still you won’t let me in

Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away

Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn’t have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you’re the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby

There you go, midnight promises again
But they’re broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster every day baby
But in the morning you’ll be gone
And I’m alone

Every dream I dream is like
Some Kinda rash ‘n’ reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don’t ever come
For me you’re still the same
Damned if I don’t, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you

babyzahir — Thu, 28 May 2009 04:27:34 +0000

It had been two bad weeks for me… So bad that sometimes, I just can’t breathe.

There are a lot of ways of escaping. Or stalling. Sometimes, I’d wonder why not just face what’s inevitable? I guess, like any warrior, you need time to pause, reflect, gain energy. Because once you’re in the battlefield, there’s no turning around. You either finish it head-on, or die or get wounded in the middle. Any way, there’s no stopping once you take that step.

So, I’ve been doing lots of crazy stuff. And counting.

At this moment, I want to be disconnected from the social world. So no social networks for me right now. The world around me continues to go forth, while I’m stuck somewhere in a skeleton-full closet. So why not step back, get out of that world and be on my own?

April was a month of wounds for me. Literally speaking, I got 7 wounds/cuts in my hands alone! As for May, it started off reeeeealy bad. Right after that first weekend. It was such a bummer.

So right now, I just eat. And eat and eat. Of course, I’ve been drinking alot, sampling new drinks and tasting new concoctions. Hanging out with a new group of friends. It just has to be something new. Hey, we cope up in different frequencies.

So, food. I’ve been having Kopi-Roti mania the past few weeks. And each visit just keeps on getting better.

Kopi Roti Indulgence

So, this is my Kaya toast with soft-boiled eggs. It is just heavenly. Kaya toast with coco-butter filling….. whoot-woo! And of course I paired it with Kopi tea (coffee tea). The other drink is Kopi with milk. And not just any milk. It’s condensed milk! Yummy! What did I pair it with?

Kopi French Toast!

Yep yep! French Toast and again with the coco-butter spread. I just can’t get enough of it. I’ve been visiting at least once a week.

I am just one happy girl with Kopi Roti finally opening in Cebu!

I am not Dishonest, I am just not telling…

babyzahir — Sun, 24 May 2009 16:03:52 +0000

“You just had a feeling about someone. And today, your suspicions will be totally confirmed…”

—my horoscope for the day? 02 May 2009

There is just something powerful with one’s gut feel. And at times, it is just too strong that all it’s doing is scream from the insides, until you go “logic-deaf”.

Anyway, how so true my horoscope is today. I just had a feeling that this someone is not being truthful —and find out I did.

And it got me to thinking: there are a few people worthy of your trust. Conversely, not all would deem me worthy of their trust.

That being said, if you can’t be honest with me then I probably am not worthy of your trust and not of significant value.

So now, I am saving myself the trouble of having to feel bad.

I’ll just look forward to tomorrow’s boxing match. What you see is what you get.

(late posting. Drafted 02 May 2009)

Closing Circles

babyzahir — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 12:55:29 +0000

“It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn’t matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over.”

-The Zahir

I was catching up with an old friend last week. We had a lot to talk about. It was some real cathing up.

We sat together in class way back in college. Us being girls, we talked about everything. And zeroed in on our lovelives. Dang! Why is it such a crucial topic? And then I realized: why do I cringe everytime people ask me about it?

But this mate of mine had her share of broken hearts, snatched fairy tales, torn dreams. She learned the hard way. Don’t we all? Haven’t we, at one point, claimed to be in love? Haven’t we professed that this time, it is different? How many times should that happen?

This, she has to say: We focus too much on making things work with one person, but if we consider every guy a possibility, then things will be easier.

I suppose, she is right.

So ditch all those hopes, all those dreams with one person. Better yet, don’t start hoping. Don’t start dreaming. You’ll just get disappointed.

What an empty life that would be.

To live with no risk.

I say, move forward. Whatever frustrations you had from the past, leave it where it should be. In the past. Closing circles. Don’t be afraid to hope again. To dream again.

It is just like looking for an ace in a stack of cards. The more cards you discard, the nearer you get to your ace.

Tiring? Yes. But it will be worth it.

You’ve Got A Friend

babyzahir — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 19:33:10 +0000

I got this link from a dear friend today. Rather than you clicking on it, let me just repost it here.

By Henrylito D. Tacio

“AND if I should ever go away, well then close your eyes and try to feel the way we do today. And then if you can remember: Keep smiling, keep shining knowing you can always count on me, for sure. That’s what friends are for. For good times and bad times, I’ll be on your side forever more. That’s what friends are for.”

Well, if the words are very familiar to you, it’s because they were quoted from a Burt Bacharach song, which was made famous by Dionne Warwick (although Rod Steward also sang the same song as theme song of a movie).

Panagbenga 2009 blog

American author and speaker Steve Stephens listed five reasons why we need friends.

For one, friends provide perspective. “No matter how capable you are, there will be days you feel lost, when you need some clear direction, some fresh ideas, or just a different perspective,” he explains.

For another, friends provide company. “Good friends provide a distraction from the pressures of your day, comfort from the hurts of life, and escape from loneliness,” Stephens writes.

“Sometimes friends laugh with you and sometimes they cry with you, but most important, friends are always willing to be with you when you need them.”

The third reason: friends provide a place to vent. “Some days you can handle the difficulties that press you down; other days you just have to let it all out,” he points out.

“A friend is willing to listen when you just feel like complaining about the injustices and annoyances that fill this world.”

Friends also provide accountability. To be accountable, Stephens says, “is to consent to being watched and questioned. Allowing yourself to be transparent and vulnerable is a wonderful protection against temptation and naivete. You let them catch you when you fall and lift you back to the place where you know you should be.”

Lastly, friends provide encouragement. Stephens states, “Sometimes it’s easy to lose hope. The frustrations of the past haunt you, the stress of the present overwhelms you, and the prospect of the future discourages you. When you are overwhelmed, you need at least one cheerleader.” And that cheerleader is your friend.

“Friendship improves happiness, and abates misery, by doubling our joy, and dividing our grief,” said Joseph Addison. Pam Brown adds, “In loneliness, in sickness, in confusion — the mere knowledge of friendship makes it possible to endure, even if the friend is powerless to help. It is enough that they exist. Friendship is not diminished by distance or time, by imprisonment or war, by suffering or silence. It is in these things that it roots most deeply. It is from these things that it flowers.”

Tim McGraw sums up the value of friends in these words: “If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn’t jump with them; I’d be at the bottom to catch them. Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don’t say. We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.”

But some friendships never last forever. There are instances where friends become enemies. But there are also those that mend their differences and become friends again.

“When we develop friendships, we intend for them to last. But since two fallen human beings are involved, occasional hurt feelings and unmet expectations are likely. If one or both people simply ignore the offense, the relationship can be damaged,” explains Dr. Charles Stanley in his In Touch Daily Devotional.

But friendship can be restored and saved. “Repairing a troubled friendship requires humility to admit our faults, effort to fix the problem, and time,” he writes.

“But the reward is a renewed connection with a valued companion. The process of saving a friendship begins when you acknowledge that damage exists. This takes place the moment you say, I feel something isn’t right in our relationship. I’d like for us to find and fix the problem.”

Dr. Stanley said the two individuals must work together in order for them to save their friendship. For one, both should assess how the trouble started. Perhaps it resulted from a misunderstanding, an unresolved conflict, or one person being so busy.

(For comments, write me at henrytacio@gmail.com.)

I can only say: Cheers to friendship!

ShAKChI

So here are my HighSchool Friends. GradeShcool wouldn’t be the same without them. We’ve been together since 4th grade and up to this day, we try to keep in touch as often as we can.

It was harder to keep in touch when we were in College, having chosen different fields and making new college friends.

And yet, here we are. Still holding on. This I have to say: this is the first tie I have other than family that brings to mind “home”.

A home will always be a place you look forward to after a long day. A stressful day. Or a happy, productive day. Friendship should be like that. No matter what happens, the fights, the tampuhans, you would still end up together. The mindset would always be: this shall pass.

And so, yes, there is home in this friendship. We called ourselves SHAKCHI then (just like any other kids of that age, hehe) Sh (Sheryll) A (Anne) K (Kristine) Ch (Cherry) and I (Ivy).

Circle of Letters

Now this is the group I sticked out thru college. And there was Jenny, too, albeit a different friend tie.

This is P, C, B, A and Q. We call ourselves by the first letter of our names. I know, very Gossip Girl-y. But hey, we started this before the sitcom. And just like the sitcom, we adopted this name calling for text-efficiency! Hahaha!

This group has seen me thru bad and thru good. More than anybody else, this circle has seen me grow (matured?) as they to me. Well, we were the ones together in the so-called messed-up-teener-years… the adolescent stage? Somewhere between child and adult. The curious stage in one’s life.

Oh, the fights we had, the boys we gushed about, to the first bottle of beer! I’d go back to College all over again with these crazy people! To the outside world, we were very fastidious in our study (daw!). We never went out at night. No gimik. We have to be home at a certain time of the day, no late nights except for class and if we do, we have to show our student load to our parents. Hahaha! No overnights unless we have to for academics or for enrollment. And we still find ourselves escorted by parents for enrollment! Hahaha!

I have to say, I grew up with them. We grew up together. We got curious together. We learned together. And I like the support that we all have. Well, there are still some of us who are still curious in some things, right? The learning curve still hasn’t drop….

Sould Friends

And then there’s Jenny. Soulfriend. I met her when I got separated from my college buddies. We all got separated. Different blocks.

Jenny was that girl who introduced me to her boys. You could say, she initiated me. Hahaha! The Circle of Letters was always deemed to be a man hater’s club (except for B). You can make your own theories on why we were man-haters club, it just is.

But with J, she introduced me to all her crack ups with her boys. We went to the Engineering Campus of our college, do crazy stuff there. All in good fun. We shared a lot of things together, even crushes. Hahaha! Thus, we called ourselves soulfriends. But more than the boys, there was music we shared, too. You see, she was in a highschool band and it’s something that I really think is cool. We love the same songs, and she masters all the lyrics. I can still remember how envious I was every time she sings Spiderweb. I like that song! Hands down there. I call her Mommy as Mommy. Her Daddy as Daddy and Kuya as Kuya.

Chayix

And then there’s Chai. OH MY!

Hahaha! Now this girl is my party girl. My kind of hommie! Hahaha! She got me drunk the first time! Oh the antics we did together. Our hobby? Bar hopping! Clubbing! Hahaha. Concerts, street parties, cocktails (no beer for us!), learning billiards, the works! And this time, she and I were dealing with men. So over with boys! Hahaha. She became an integral part of my after-college life. How did that ever turned to be? I was working while she was still in college. We were just too in synch!

Now, here is the person who witnessed a lot of my firsts. We do crazy stuff but we are each other’s moral ground. As said: friends look out for each other. If all else fails, we ride the bandwagon together, right?

Definitely, these are the people in my life that I would catch at the bottom if they jump off the bridge! Cheers to friendship! And to whatever lies before us, “hawak-kamay”! Hahaha!

First trip down on this Site

babyzahir — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 16:13:52 +0000

I was opening my yahoo mail today and I saw a featured article on 2o Best Views in the World.

Aaaah… the Grand Canyon…

photo credit to Tom Till/Getty Images

Isn’t she a beauty… awe-spiring!

And so I was brought back to the time when I said: I have to be there when there’s a chance to be in the US of A!

And when was this? It was that year when FOOLS RUSH IN was out on the big screen, circa 1997.

Darn! Those were the days… Hahaha!

And the movie quotes I’d dribble on my books and notes:

“Love is a gift… not an obligation”

“You are everything I never knew I wanted!”

“You will never know love unless you surrender to it…”

“It is not your faith that has betrayed you. It is your fear”

“There are signs everywhere….”

I was very idealistic then. It has to be like this, a relationship has to be like that. So on and so forth. No gray areas. Either a relationship works. Or it does not, then he is not the one.

Fairytales, prince and princess, damsel in distress rescued by a gallant knight in a shining armore (and I would throw in a handsome face to that shining armor in a visor!). My own Utopia. Everything so perfect.

That one day, he would just cross my path, see me, and would believe that love at first sight do exist. Hahaha! How pathetic of me then.

But yes, I went through the usual hoops and loops. And got doped! Hahaha!

Of all the quotes in the movie, it is the last one that would still stand out. There are signs everywhere.

Until now, I still do believe in signs. And it is ironic.

Why?

I am a practicing Catholic. I believe I do have faith in the Lord. And yet, armed with my faith, I would still ask from Him to give me a sign before proceeding.

Does one really need a sign in order to proceed? Can’t what is in the deepest recesses of one’s heart not enough? If one does have faith with the Supreme Being, isn’t it the heart that is a person’s compass in life? So why ask for a sign?

More often than not, I really don’t know what I want. If I do, life could have been so simple…

Hello world!

babyzahir — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 06:59:00 +0000

And so there is an initial entry! Hello to this site.

After mulling on where to blog, I’ve landed here. I have arrived.

Looking forward to more of me on this site.